Worn-out

Sometimes I come to think it’s something that I can’t really manage to handle. I would just give up and die slowly. That’s how it goes with my working life recently.

I’m assigned to something I don’t understand. I knew virtually nothing but I had to convince the client that everything was going to be okay and made sure I didn’t look stupid. I had to be professional, be tough when getting so tight, when told suddenly “I need an answer today” when the client said the vice versa the day before I could be laid back and took things slowly. After all, no one is going to help. I’m all alone, with no colleague to help, with not much knowledge I brought with me, not even access to the internet to help me researching!

I sit alone in the corner of a big room with full of people I don’t or barely know day to day, talking the whole day with the single computer, chasing up the clients who seem not so responsive which definitely will kill my deadline. I need to manage my own schedule. No one is going to ask or worry which may be good in a sense since I can fit everything in according to me. But on the other hand, I would suddenly arrive to have missed the deadline! Not good. I have no experience for this. This feels like I’m managing my own project which I’m also executing, deciding everything all alone, leakage is here and there.

Recently, honestly I really feel actually I’ve been under quite a lot of stress though I’m denying it. I really feel so weary, deeply exhausted even sometimes when I’m not physically should be that tired. Well, I am mentally yes. The bad news, the other things don’t seem to fit in. None listens, none bothers, but sometimes pushed me a bit more than I can handle. I really don’t want to complain every single day, some people even won’t like and they will return to saying I’m such a complaining person so maybe better I keep my mouth shut. Well, I do realize I have weaker fuse these days that I can get all messy just by a bit of pressure. Sorry for that.

Maybe all in all, I just need a better work life balance or a bit of break, or even an escape. I may need to think a bit of my own happiness, being a bit more individualistic. But the thing is, I have to be professional, I’ve given the opportunity, I should push a bit more now and a bit more then. Get things right and done, then have fun.

Oh yes, quoted from my facebook status as I just watched it tonight: “really thinks that the T2 Movie is too monotonous, too much overhyped, too expensive.. it doesn’t even quality as an 8, unlike its predecessor.. seriously they could have used that $ 200 mil budget plus the promotional cost to make some other epic war movie.. stalningrad, normandy, battle of britain or even some war of ancient times… or even they may wipe a bit of poverty..” Good night or maybe a bit later. I should wait for my laundry.

Pay Day

Went back from work, saw an atm, put the card in, wait a moment.. yay! My first SGD salary is in, that’s something really new. That’s why  I think it’s worthy to be noted here. At least i’m freed from poverty for a while. Will need to clear all my debts ASAP.

Anyway, two more house mates are moving in, now all 8 rooms are occupied. This time it’s a young TALL German doctor working nearby in Singapore General Hospital, and another one a pretty young French lady just opposite of my room.

Too bad, I’m still as always stiff with foreigner so I feel uncomfortable sometimes. I would love to befriend them, but different culture, different topics, different jokes, I goes blank on what to say sometimes. I really wish I could be more adaptable. So it’s time, good luck to me! Good nite everyone.

Pathetic

Short story. I’ve got a new housemate residing in room C. He’s from UK and doing his internship in an Australian bank here – well it seems to me everyone in the house except me is working in a bank. My first impression is that he’s a really nice guy. His accent is clear that his english is very audible.

Just this morning, I learned a surprising thing. We had a bit of conversation with another housemate while suddenly some repair-men coming to set up the mirror. They spoke in Chinese but the British man could quite understand what those two men were talking. I was puzzled. He said he used to stay in China for a while.

So this sounds really pathetic. I’m chinese I can’t speak chinese. He can speak chinese. He’s not chinese. He’s not even asian. He’s a british.

Well, he’s undertaking his exam for a license to work in a stock market. So best of luck to him.

Saturday Trip

Originally planning to jump into Macritchie national park today but due to lacking of information, we would have been too late if we did continue our plan to get to the tree top walk at Macritchie, hence the plan was altered beyond spontaneity. Instead we visited the Lower Seletar Reservoir – Fishing Jetty,  Bottle Tree Park and Sembawang Shopping Center which happened to be in the vicinity of where we had “half-accidentally” been.

Lower Seletar Reservoir – Fishing Jetty: the far end of the Macritchie reservoir, nothing to be mentioned rather than it’s really fishing jetty since many people did fish for free there.

Bottle Tree Park: A really nice park, with lovely ponds and water lilies, benches, water riding ducks and utmostly “Bottle Tree” seafood restaurant. We didn’t have the chance to dine there but the price was really reasonable with nice ambience and an aircon-ed VIP room.

Sembawang Shopping Center: An very OK small shopping center reminding its location is way in the suburb. It has french toast shop called “le greenier a pain”, aston restaurant with nice price and nice spot, and splash park – water themed children park -. The shopping center is nowhere near MRT so go take free shuttle bus from Yishun/Khatib/Sembawang MRT operating in 15-20 mins interval.

Pictures to be put up later.

A man fishes at Fishing Jetty

Bottle Tree Restaurant from afar

"Ducks" on water

Yay!

The Bottle Tree - Why it's named such -

Quarantined thanks to H1N1

Yes, I was.

Short story, my colleague and I went over to the client – M******, Yio Chu Kang – around 9.30 AM in the morning. We went to the server room for a while, made another walk to the IT room only to be notified shortly after that someone at the same day, earlier, was confirmed infected with H1N1/Influenza A/Swine Flu. The person originally sat just in the cubicle in the far corner of the room and he just came back from Phillipine earlier on.

By the government authority, we were quarantined, given mask and disinfectant to protect us before they disinfected and cleaned up the room. Funnily, the staff there was still able to make a joke like “Can not work, can not breath” *pointing to the mask covering his mouth*. We could not get out of the room even to have lunch and we had to order McD delivery which arrived at 4PM which made the day. Even we were asked for our address and IC/FIN/Passport number to be recorded.

At the end of the day, everyone in the room were busy covering their PCs, and desks since it was mentioned they’re going to do through disinfection process. We were finally let off at 6.30 PM which didn’t sound so bad. Period.

Weekend is coming. Time for some time-out although even now at 1.26 AM I’m actually still doing things with work *sigh*. Oh, I watched a cabaret today, and it was indeed interesting since that was my first time watching cabaret plus it was performed in french which I barely even understood any single word. I in fact, quite enjoyed the show. Enjoy your weekend!